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LGBT Week 2007
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When I'm Not Who They Say I Should Be
I remember reading a card from my mother, shortly after I told her that I was gay, she said that the blood of Jesus could wash away this sin, if only I had faith. She did not want a gay son, and to be honest, I did not want her to only have a gay son. I wanted her to have a son that was a person of faith, who was honest, who was caring. But at that moment I was not what she wanted to be.
The church tells me that I should be silent about being gay, I might offend a parishioner, we may lose pledges, what would the community think if they knew the pastor of the big white church with the steeple was gay. Does it matter if you are gay they ask? Is it not ok if our motto is Don’t Ask Don’t Tell? The church doesn’t want a gay minister, that’s to complicated. To be honest, I don’t want my church to have a gay minister either. Instead I hope my church views me as a caring leader, compassionate friend, and a person of faith.
They say I should not be gay. They want me to be something else. Anything perhaps, then gay.
I am something else. Yes I am a gay Christian, but I am more then that. To only see me for my sexual preference is the same as only seeing me for my blue eyes or my orange sweater.
I am what I am supposed to be. To my mother I am a good son, to my church I am a good leader and pastor, and to God I am God’s child. I know that my God created me to be exactly who I should be. Thanks be to God!
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